Yeah fuck it all.

Prom was worth all the time and money...def not worth me getting worked up over stupid shit though lol, but im an uptight person alot of the times for no reason sry =[  OH well it was a jolly good time...Keegan had a few if his friends there and i had alot of mine to pal with.  Melissa, Anna and Serena =best ever.

 I <3 keegs

My neighbor drove us in his hummer...first time either keegs and I were in one

Karly and Gordon....god they are sooooo tall

Anna and Marc...they are pretty much the coolest ever.

Hah so today at work some lady came through my line and told me i should be a model LOLZ...she told me i had gorgeous features and nice hair...yeah i know its a "rare" hue and natural too =]  i cant help if genetics made me awsome lol...  Anyways i totally disagreed with her...I explained that i was only between 5'0 and 5'1 her response was "get heels" lol....she liked my face and my hair and went on about how cute and tiny i was (perhaps she had a fetish for hobbits?) but she went on about how she wish she brought her son with her because he would adore me and he just broke up with his gf and blah blah....haha wtf I have a bf and hes super cute<3

All i have to say is....Yes, i am normal looking i suppose....im very proportionate and am very glad i come from a decent looking line of people.....I dont have a pignose, a hit with frying pan face, or that whole "ive been rotting on the bottom of a lake for weeks look" nor is anything horribly wrong with me (physically) so thats all that makes me happy. As karly would say "hooray genetics"

PROMMMMMMM in t minus four.  mhmmmmmmmm its gunna be funnnnnnnn.

i used to be the bright one
smart as a whip
funny how you slip so far when
teachers dont keep track of it

i used to be the tight one
the perfect fit
funny how those compliments can
make you feel so full of it

Most of this is venting to myself.  I just dont know anymore...I cant fucking explain myself to anyone nor should i have to.  Sorry im a bitch, i cant help it right now.  I have alot of shit going through my head & im afraid im going to do something myself or someone else will regret.  Ive been having these horrible dreams lately and normally i dont have dreams at all...im so afraid someone is going to hurt me or worse im going to hurt someone else.   My parents think i should check into some sorta program or management for some issues, and my dad jokes around about me never being able to own a gun because im such an "angry girl."  Well I seriously cant control it sometimes...and im sorry if i have flipped at you recently or made you feel badly about yourself, i cant even make myself happy let alone anyone else.  For god sake, I leech off my boyfriend for happiness & he seems to be the only one who can bring me alittle besides my horse.  Its not fair to them...  Oh well my excuse is im irish and we have nasty tempers on top of that redheads have a pretty bad repuatation for crazy tempers.  Hey, if you cant find the sorce of a problem blame everything else right?  Oh well, id rather be a rageing lunitic than go to the mitchellin clinic again...ughhhh Barb drove me up a wall!

Another thing..dont judge me based off of my words...in case you wanted to know ACTIONS speak louder...if i say something like im going to kill him outta anger...I dont mean it (true story yo...I told someone i was guna kill my dog for running around in the street) and they got all upset and told my mom i beat dogs?  WTF is that....I dont eat meat so why would i beat a dog?  Thats so fucked up i hope they get anal raped by an elephant.  Seriously lick my cooter you fuckers.  I love my dog more than pretty much anything...i love animals more than most people for god sake.  I would never hit my pets nor have i ever...so before you make assumptions because your too retarded to understand the frustration of seeing your pet run around on a street cars are flying up and down without looking...Just shut the fuck up...get bent.

So slept over keegans last night...it was kinda fun mmyes.  Im so glad to have a nice boy like him..seriously i cant stand pretty much anyone but him and a select few friends...we didnt really get too much sleep *cough* but meh well it was interesting. It was kinda a suprise too because i didnt think i was gunna go over then around midnight showed up...yeah i know im awsome like that?  Well only like a month til prom NOT EVEN YOOOO...cant wait Keegs is gunna be so cuteeeeee and hopefully i wont look like trash haha.

So I got in a fight with a gay kid today(literally gay...im not trying to use gay as a mean term, he actually was FlAMING GAY)....Hes EXTREMELY annoying and i simply told him to shut up....well yea, i was rude and mean, & was more like "GOD, shut up your so fucking annoying!" but god someone had to be mean before my ears exploded from his girly voice...I hate gay people that are too flaming gay for their own good & have more estrogen than I do lol....Honestly go through puberty or pull that dildo outta your ass.  HIs resoonse to me was "Bitch, do you even know me at all?" (might i add in a fag accent, if you will lol)  my response was "No NOT UHHHH" with gay motion/gayish voice i could do included...he got offended for making fun of his ripped asshole or something and freaked out at me...I started laughing and said "you know, I like anal too..." and he got upset and ran away.  Lemme just end my statement with what a fag! 

"I am a bitch

How do you want me?

From behind?

Or on my knees?

I am a slut

Please hold me down

I’ll be your noise

This shit will fuck you up"  -combichrist.